my best friend's wedding

friends

♥ assalamualaikum 

I am a very emotional person but can i poyo-ly say that i'm emotional in a good kind of way? :)
I appreciate friendship, but still i am a bit conservative. I can admit my love for a guy that i honestly believe i am in love with, but to friends? Its hard for me say it out loud, i don't know.. I don't simply declare that they're my best friends, not when they are around. I'm a bit shy...haha



When far from each other



I can 'masuk' with other people easily, maybe its cuz i'm open and i don't mind coping with other people's personality. But to really connect? Not really..They are a few people (non family members) that i am really fond of. There is a special bond that exist between me and them, with or without them realizing it. I don't really mind about that. When these people are far from me, only then i realized how much i care for them and how much i miss them. And when i felt that way i know that i consider them as my best friend. Although i hate the fact that we're not close like we use too, but it feels good to finally have that courage to admit that i really love them. And i don't have to say it to their face, i can just text them or cowardly blog about it and hope that they'll read it someday. (awwww...so sweet) hehe..



My kind of friendship






Its hard for me to consider someone as my best friend, but when i do..i don't mind not being there when everything is fine, i don't mind to not have the chance to laugh with you..but you can always count on me when you're feeling down and i'll be torn if you forget to share your tears with me. (awwwww..macam nak mengorat). I know its too euwwwy, haha..but hey, i really mean it. 

I don't know why but i'm feeling romantic, maybe its cuz one of my best friend is getting married this saturday.. yay! Hee..Barakallah for you and your husband. And thinking about how happy she would be just makes me in a good mood all week (except for tesst and assignments). I miss my best friends..The ones in KL and Selangor, in UK, in India...gosh i miss you guys so much. Sobsob 

Ok thats all lovey dovey for tonight. Until next time! haha :D


This is not goodbye

friends

♥ assalamualaikum 








This is our final weeks, we might not see each other again. I know this is the most sentimental moments for us students, but i refuse to feel that way (poyo). I do feel sad, but not too sad. Because i know that this is not goodbye. All these years, i have met the most wonderful people, and to my surprise even these few last weeks, i still manage to meet more and managed to create memories that will last in my mind, in my heart i.Allah forever. Thank you so much.


I hated a few people, i loved a lot..i laughed, i cried and screamed..haha But everything, now i really believe, happens for a reason. I learned a lot from my mistakes, my triumphs, my failures..from my friends and from strangers that soon became one of my closest companion. Thank you. Thank you so much.




I'm glad that my path led me here, alhamdulillah. 




My dear friends, i wish all the best for everyone. Forgive me if i've done anything wrong, i am deeply sorry for everything bad that previous me had done. I'm not the same girl anymore. Truly i've changed, hopefully for the better. Good luck for final year exam, good luck for presentation and good luck with your thesis and good luck with life. Semoga rezeki anda semua melimpah ruah dan penuh dengan keberkatan oleh Nya :)




Our path crossed while we're here, maybe it'll cross again someday.




endless memories

friends

♥ assalamualaikum 


Akhirnya, selesai sudah dinner kami. Fuuh Sangat memenatkan but sangat worth it. I know a lot of people were divided, "nak pergi ke tak nak? nak pergi ke taknak?" 60 ringgit is a lot of money, no matter who you are. Tak kisah lah anak orang kaya ke, sederhana ke, susah ke..kita semua sama. Kita student lagi, besar nilainya 60 ringgit tu. Tapi semua bergantung pada masing-masing nak spend macam mana. 60 ringgit untuk satu malam bersama kawan-kawan, murah sangat. Memori bersama kawan-kawan yang mungkin tak dapat nak jumpa lagi lepas ni, priceless. Tak terbayar dengan wang ringgit. Thank you for being there last night :)










The best part



The best part is working with people i rarely work with. Apa yang aku nak capai daripada dinner ni dah tercapai. And i am so happy about it. Yayy! Batch kita agak ramai jugak lah kalau nak compare dengan batch lain. Siap ade dua group. So group yang lain-lain ni susah nak jumpa. Jadi tak kenal sangat. Tapi semalam, group mana pun, kelas mana pun, semua sama-sama buat kerja, sama-sama siapkan semua, sama-sama makan, sama-sama gelak. And the best part, amek gambar sama-sama. Yay lagi! Tapi tak sempat nak amek gambar dengan semua orang, tak sempat. huhu




most wanted superman

3 tahun tak lepak sekali ye ant? O.O



Photobooth!



This is madness! Haha.. Susah gila kot nak buat photobooth ni. Sebenarnya senang kalau ada banyak duit! haha..Tapi disebabkan kos sangat lah ciput dan cukup-cukup je, kitorang terpaksa susahkan diri membuat benda alah ni. Nak dirikan dia susah sangat. Perrhh Basah ketiak beb, basah lecak. Euww..Tapi berjaya jugak. Walaupun tak perfect, banyak bunga jatuh-jatuh, frame cabut-cabut.. tapi jadilah. Kahkahkah.


A dream come true. Semua orang happy. Susah dan terseksa buat semua ni pun tak kisah. Thank you so much izy, nayah, has, casse, fifah, syah.. Thank you pol sebab pakukan, thank you arman sebab tolong belikan barang-barang. Thank you mira, ecah, paan, nasrah and the geng, tqa and the geng. haha..Thank you so much tolong buatkan bunga dan probs segala. Cantik sangat. Thank you so much.





aww..so sweet <3 <3



Mission accomplished




Thank you isa, biskut dan ajk lain sebab organize majlis ni. Thank you pol, paob, piji, epul, pali, ant, kacu, mus, bean, apit alaahai ramai je nak sebut satu-satu. Huhu Thank you untuk gimik yang sangat ossem, thank you untuk opening yang sangat best. Thank you epul sebab duet dengan aku. Aku rasa tak layak gila dapat award voice sebab tak pernah nak nyanyi betul-betul. Asek tersangkut je. Aku memang stage fright lah..Bila depan orang ramai tangan aku akan menggeletar gila lepas tu suara masuk dalam. Sobsob (alasan). Tapi thank you so much sebab tak kisah dan bagi aku jugak award tu. Cewahh! Macam menang award ape pulak kan. Kahkah!


It was indeed a memorable night. Thank you for allowing me to be part of this. And thank you my dear friends for coming and having such a good time. Mintak maaf untuk segala kekurangan. We were a little short on budget and hands but everything went better than we expected. Thank you again. Till we meet again someday :) 


*ps: aku pinjam gambar-gambar dekat fb harap takde yang marah. hihi Maafin
*2nd ps: jangan lupa tengok video yang arman post kat fb. Rase sedih lak bila tengok. huhu




tribute for friendship

friends

♥ assalamualaikum 


Hey..Hai..Post harini adelah khas untuk rakan-rakan kelas saya, rakan-rakan batch saya. :)
We've been here, in UTM for four years yet i have not have the time to get to know all of you. This is school all over again. Masa aku sekolah dulu, walaupun batch kitorang tak ramai, tapi still..aku tak dapat nak kenal semua orang. Mungkin sebab aku asek hang out dengan kelompok yang sama. hehe Sama lah macam dekat UTM ni. 4 tahun, tapi circle of people that i can call friends masih kecil. Well i mean close friends la. Haa

I really really really want to change that.








Creating endless memories

Aku rasa tu la theme terbaik untuk dinner bagi aku. Sebab ni last event yang kita boleh join as a batch. This dinner is personal for me. Bagi aku ni lah masanya untuk aku tebus masa-masa yang aku tak luangkan dengan kawan-kawan. Aku selalu buat hal sendiri, selalu lepak pun dengan orang yang sama je. Aku bukan taknak, tapi aku segan sebenarnya. Haa mesti ramai orang macam tu. Rasa macam nak join lepak dengan 'diorang-diorang' tapi segan..kan kan?


At least masa ni aku boleh lah borak-borak, amek-amek gambar dengan semua orang. Sebab semua orang dah sibuk dah sekarang, kalau nak keluar lepak-lepak pun dah payah da. Waktu masing-masing tak sama. So why not kita lengang kan sikit masa untuk dinner ni. Kan kan? :)



Photobooth

Lately aku selalu browse pinterest. Sebab aku suka! haha..Sebab benda-benda yang ada kat situ sangat inspirational. Untuk dinner ni, aku ingat nak buat photobooth yang nampak macam gambar yang dah diframekan dekat dinding. Ahha confusing sungguh..







Something like those. Aku tengok kebanyakannya buat pakai kayu. Tapi macam susah jugak tu nak bertukang. Aku sedang memerah otak lagi, cemana nak buat ye? Tapi rasanya dah ada idea dah kot. Simple dan hopefully sangat jimat. Guna apa yang ada, yes, that is the strategy. 


Sebenarnya aku teringin sangat nak buat dinner dengan tema mustache. Ala-ala hipster la, cewah. Tapi macam tak sesuai pulak. Takpe, tapi aku nak jugak misai tu! hehe..So aku akan masukkan unsur-unsur hipster tu dalam photobooth ni. Aku akan cuba buat probs yang cool dan adorable. Maybe some mustaches, beard, some dialogue box and etc. Lepas tu kalau boleh aku nak hias dengan light drapes..lampu jurai-jurai. Vah vah..grand gitu. hihi






Cantikkan? Aku harap sangat dapat buat yang cantik-cantik. Sebab gambar kita boleh simpan..Gambar tu boleh jadi token, memento untuk kita kenang. Nanti aku try buat probs yang orang boleh tulis nama masing-masing. Mana tau lupa kan? hihi.


Sebenarnya aku ada banyak sangat idea untuk event macam ni. Tapi tak semua boleh sebab tak kena dengan tema, kos lagi. Jadi aku ingat aku nak tuka lah, idea-idea untuk event tu boleh di convertkan jadi idea untuk wedding. Mwahahahah! habis la..habis la..Dah siap plan dah. hahah


That is all for now. Hoping for the best.
ps: tribute for friendship ke tribute to friendship? *sigh* Oh my english.






kawan lama

bebeling

♥ assalamualaikum 










Kita tak tahu hala tuju kita. Kita cuma berjalan atas laluan yang kita rasa betul. Sepanjang perjalanan kita akan jumpa macam-macam jenis orang. Orang yang lahirkan perasaan sayang, benci..semuanya perancangan Allah. Dulu saya tak faham makna hubungan. Dulu priority saya selalu salah. Saya selalu lebihkan kawan-kawan daripada keluarga. Saya selalu rasa kawan lah orang yang paling faham saya. Tapi sekarang saya dah tak fikir macam tu. Bagi saya, keluarga nombor satu. :)





Hubungan





Saya faham ada dua jenis hubungan dalam dunia ni. Hubungan dengan Allah dan hubungan dengan manusia. Hubungan dengan Allah adelah hal masing-masing, tanggungjawab masing-masing (tapi masih perlu nasihat-menasihati). Tapi hubungan sesama manusia adelah tanggungjawab kita bersama.


Saya percaya, baik buruknya hubungan, sentiasa ada hikmahnya. Kawan-kawan yang menjatuhkan saya dan kawan-kawan yang membantu saya berdiri adelah sama penting. Sebab semua benda yang berlaku, pahit manis semuanya adalah rahmat dari Allah. Saya belajar dari kesilapan hubungan saya yang dulu untuk bina hubungan yang lebih baik hari ini. Kalau tak pernah jatuh kita takkan tahu cara nak berdiri kan?
Berserah





Saya nak jadi orang yang berserah. Walau apa pun yang berlaku dalam hubungan saya dengan sesiapa pun, saya nak sentiasa jadi orang yang bersabar dan bersyukur. Sebab saya tahu semuanya dah tertulis. Saya kena belajar terima semuanya dengan hati yang tenang. Tapi dalam pada masa yang sama, saya akan cuba jadi yang terbaik. Sebab saya cuma boleh control apa yang saya buat, apa yang saya rasa. Saya tak boleh control perasaan dan tindakan orang lain.










Ada banyak hubungan yang saya dah tinggalkan. Ramai kawan-kawan yang saya lupakan. Sementara, saya harap semuanya sementara. Saya tak pandai nak balancekan masa sangat, saya tak pandai balancekan hubungan, tu kelemahan saya. Saya tak reti sangat nak multi task. :b


Saya sentiasa harapkan hubungan yang terbaik dengan semua orang. Walapun saya letakkan keluarga di tempat yang teratas, tapi persahabatan tetap penting bagi saya. Saya akan sentiasa ingat orang-orang yang banyak membantu mematangkan saya. Suatu hari nanti, mungkin semua hubungan yang terputus akan terjalin kembali, atas nama silaturrahim..Insha Allah..
You can't control when people will come and go, but you can control your memories with them. Memories will stay within you as long as you want them to stay.



my life : updated

family
♥assalamualaikum

Tonight i feel like i wanna write about me. Bcuz you know, everybody need some 'me' time. To begin, i am a final year student now, a senior, a lazy senior and this semester i have upgraded myself to be a non-ponteng-dengan-sengaja-er. And i am so proud of myself. Haha. .Dulu tak tau lah kenapa, aku selalu ponteng. Maybe sebab susah nak bangun pagi kot. huhu Tapi kalau kelas pukul 2 pun, lepas lunch break aku malas nak gi jugak so bukan sbb susah bangun, dan...kalau kelas terlalu petang pun aku malas jugak nak pegi. Heh Pendek citer tiap-tiap mase lah aku malas nak pegi kelas. Tapi alhamdulillah, anjakan paradigma yang ossem, aku takde lagi lah ponteng dengan sengaja. *plus minus 2 or 3 classes heheh


life update : academic


My final year project is frustrating. I had put myself to be in a situation where i'm just doing it for the sake of grade. I'm not doing things that i love. I guess its my own fault. I didnt really think before i chose my lect and my title. I was too relax, too casual. I just follow the flow. And it lead me here. But i'm being optimistic. Maybe i need some time to absorb this. You cant force love you know :)

Last week i think, i just got my reinforced concrete design test 1 result. It was, again, frustrating. I really thought that i can do well on this subject, i really thought that i understood..but, hmm..guess i'm wrong. They say its bcuz our lecturer is too strict. Almost everyone in my class is not happy about their result, so that gave me some hope. Maybe its true that he is too strict, maybe i did understand but he expect more. Thats why he was being stingy with the marks. Maybe.


life update : personal

retarded people belong to be together. hahah
I am in a serious relationship right now and it has been two years. I dont how people look at us or label us, but to me, this is the best relationship anyone can ever have. He's a great friend, a great companion, the other half of me. I am not brave enough to say that we will last forever, but all i can say is that if Allah wills, i hope someday we will be halal for each other.

But now his father is sick. His father has a high blood pressure and just recently he had a stroke. When the first time it happened, i was so shocked and scared for him. When he first called to tell me about it, at first, he sounded so calmed, i thought he was ok..but then he kept silence for awhile. I thought there was a problem with the phone signal. I kept calling his name saying hello..but it turns out that he was actually holding from crying. It made me cried as well.

our first date :D
I followed him to the hospital a few times. And sometimes, when his mother was with his dad in the hospital, i would went to his house and took care of his siblings for him. I didnt do much actually. I tried to cook roti telur, but i was too clumsy it got burned. Last time i cook lunch for them, and the bawang and ikan bilis were kinda burned too. Haha..I cook rice for them and it was dry..So as a conclusion, i sux. Haha But they eat it anyway..The youngest brother even complimented my cucur yang keras nak mampus tu. "Sedap kak yana buat cekodok." Yo yo o je...yang lain makan sambil buat muke ketat dan hampir mengalami kekejangan otot rahang. Heheh sorry tak biase dapur orang lain :b

This is a new experience for me. I never knew how it felt to have someone in the family to be really sick. Especially ayah..i couldnt imagine how life would be if ayah gotten sick. But now at least, eventho it is not my family, but because we are so close, i felt it. I worried a lot, sometimes more than i should. But everyone else is doing fine. Altho i can see that his mother is so tired from taking care of his father and tired of being worried all the time, she still smiles a lot, laugh a lot, and she scold her children a lot too. Haha..His sister and brothers were doing fine too. But i know, they miss the old days.

His father would need help if he wanted to move around the house, he eat and drink from tube, he can barely speak..but, he can still cry when he missed his children while he was in the hospital and he can still laugh when they joke around. I learn a lot from this family. I rarely called home to check on my family, i rarely text my sisters, i rarely even chat with them in facebook. But now, i try to connect more often with them. You never know what life will bring.

Things will be fine.  If you are reading this, i want you to know that i am always here. I'll be your shoulder to cry on, i'll be your strength when you're weak. Things are not the same anymore, but its not forever. i know its hard but everything will turn out just fine, you will be just fine. You'll be even stronger, even more matured after this. And i will try my best to help you whenever i could. I love you.


Eh, tetibe rase rindu family pulak. heheh :b






* Yes, yes i am weird. Yes, my youngest sister is weird too. Weirdness runs in the family.

tolak-ansur

bebeling
♥assalamualaikum

Berkawan ni susah kan? Sebab bila cerita pasal orang ni, memang banyak perangai. Tak semuanya kita suka. .Ala, kalau diri sendiri pun tak semua kita suka, inikan pulak orang lain kan? Kadang-kadang perasaan tak dapat dikawal. Walaupun kita cuba berlagak cool dan tak kisah, tapi bile ada orang bukak topik je, ha mesti teringat balik benda-benda yang kita tak suka dengan orang lain tu. Dah jadi mengungkit pulak. .jadi mengumpat pulak. .hmm Do you agree with me?

Yang kita tak suka sangat tulah 
yang ada kat diri kita sebenarnya


Kadang-kadang kita tengok orang lain gedik rase menyampah, kadang-kadang orang banyak cakap sangat rasa annoying, kadang-kodang orang sibuk pasal pasangan dia rase macam terlebih-lebih pulak. .Tapi sebenarnya sama je. .Kadang-kadang kita gedik jugak, kadang-kadang pun kita annoying, kadang-kadang memang kita rase pasangan kita tulah yang paling bagus paling ossem. Tapi, kadang-kadang sudah la, jangan selalu. Bila selalu tu yang jadi tak seronok.


Bercakap dengan lelaki/perempuan lain, dengan pakwe/makwe kalau depan kawan-kawan mungkin kena kurangkan sikit lah manjanye. Kadang-kadang memang seronok dengar, tapi kalau selalu sangat meliuk-liuk, ahhaa itu yang boleh buat menyampah tu. Merbahaya...ikh ikh ikh~



Outspoken. Kasar.
Ada orang memang style dia kasar, cakap pun main lepas je. Kalau berkawan dengan orang outspoken ni kena banyak bersabar, tak boleh makan hati kalau tak nanti jadi tak seronok. Kalau outspoken tambah pulak dengan memang cakap kasar, memang lagi la kena sabar. Tapi kalau diri kita tu yang macam tu, cakap main lepas je..cakap pun tak pernah nak lembut, jangan marah lah kalau ada masa-masa orang tersinggung. Sebab semua daya akan ada tindak balas kan? Aci la. .kira give and take la tu.

Orang yang outspoken ni pulak, sensitif orangnya. Jangan tak tahu. Bila cakap pasal orang memang lepas je, tapi nak terima teguran tu lambat sikit. Allah macam teruk sangat pulak jadi outspoken ni. Heh. .Well tak jugak, orang cakap lepas ni bagus buat kawan. Tak cakap belakang, tak pendam, hati pun baik. Tapi itu lah, kena bersabar dan give and take. Imperfections is perfect. 

**This is note to myself.
Siape yg gedik? ahha sy lah..sape yg annoying? ahha sy jgk. Ckp lepas? pun sy lah jgk adoyaibun..

reminiscence

friends


kadangkala terasa seperti dimainkan mimpi
mimpi selalu bermain dengan fikiranku
memberi harapan kepada yang mustahil untuk ku kecapi sama sekali
mimpi yang buat ku khayal dengan masa silam
menjadikan aku seorang bebal yang mencintai kenangan
aku masih di situ, bersama teman yang setia dulu
mencari jalan untuk seiring dengan masa

When you are lonely, your mind will play tricks with you. It takes you away to the best memory you ever had, and left you there. .Until someone come and save you, and bring you back to reality. There are times when the present is not being good to you and you wanna go back to glory days. Your mind keep rewinding the laughter, the tears of happiness you once share with people that had disappeared through time. People that you never really care about suddenly become so significant to you. It almost makes you think, makes you feel that life will never be the same without them. 

. . . .save me. These memories are drowning me deeper every time. 

people that reflect parts of you that you cant accept

friends
♥assalamualaikum


I always believe that the more you dont like yourself, the easier it gets for you to not like others. Does it make any sense? Sometimes its even hard for me to understand what i wrote. But you know, i think there is truth in what i'm saying. Through my experience that is.

I dont like myself that much

People who are close to me always says that, i am too negative. Its true i guess. I always hate people first, then grow to like them afterward. And it is easy for me to not like people. For me to hate someone is quite rare, but to not like people, its kinda easy. I know its not a good thing. Believe me i know. And i'm trying hard to change how my brain works on that particular part. But in the end, its not your brain that decide who you like or who you hate, i think, its your heart that decides it all. Is it?


The heart is mysterious


I always think a heart is more than just an organ. Heart is life. Your heart is who you are. Brain without heart is empty. I mean, if you have all the knowledge in the world. .you know everything, but not having someone to love to hold not having emotions and feelings to share, knowledge of life it self would be meaningless.

Hate. Hate is a fuel. They say when you hate someone, you'll be more motivated to surpass them therefore making you a better person. Is it really that way? I dont know. When i hate someone, i just hate them. It didnt motivated me to be anything. Well, it did motivate me to not be like them, so i guess yeah. Hate can be a good thing.



Hating friends.


You know its impossible to like everything about everyone. There is always something. But  its fair as long as everyone think like that. I mean, every time you dont like your friend because of something-something, you'll always remind yourself that "I bet there is something they dont like about me too." So you let it pass, cuz you know that your friend let you pass. Do you get what i'm trying to say? I sux at this. I always find it hard to explain to people about what i think.

Hm. .friendship. Friends are weird. You can love them and you can hate them at the same time. Sometime you dont understand why the acted so annoyingly, so what-is-wrong-with-you-ly, so so ugghhh-i-hate-you-ly and etc. .but there are also times when you love them so much and your brain just simply delete all the memories of stupid things that they've done. I hate when that happen, and i like when that happen too. I know, i'm not good in making decisions.

I dont know why i wrote this. I dont know what i'm really thinking right now. I guess this few days, few things happened. I hated few people this few days, this few weeks, and i feel guilty about it. I guess this is how i'm telling myself its ok to hate people sometimes. Cuz people are people. Its hard not to hate them.

This is how i'm reminding myself that if i hate people, there are people who hate me too. But they put up with me, so i have to put with them. Maybe this time its their turn to be annoying, maybe next time its mine. So if i be a good girl, and learn not to hate people when its their turn to be hateful, they'll do the same when its my time to be a super annoying monster.

The end.

wedding abg isa hensem

friends
♥assalamualaikum

tetibe ade ellos.ptong stimbot

Walaupun aku tau adelah tak perlu untuk mention kehenseman abg dia, tapi aku nak gitau gak. Tanda protes. .hahahaha *but i still love you beby.euwww hihi* Anyway, kelmarin rasanye kitorang berkonvoi 6 kereta ke wedding abg isa. Dah serupa wedding dia pulak. Dah la siap karoke dengan penuh gayanye, lagu tak sesuai langsung dengan tema kenduri, tapi gasak kau lah. .haha Perjalanan yang penuh pengembaraan. Masuk estet beb, rasa cam sesat pun ade. Sebbek ade banner, fuuhh~

*Aku nak post .gif kat fb tapi fb tak support gif lak. Dem you. .huuu So here are some of the pictures. :)

through your window

bebeling
♥assalamualaikum



You know, i have been trying and trying and trying to write something, to blog about something but i am soooo lacking of ideas. Well, nothing much is going on here. haish. Tapi semalam, ha. .semalam aku baru je daftar megundi. Sebab kena sindiran hangat dari member gua, cis kau. "Kalau tak daftar ngundi baik takyah de blog la." Dem you guys, dem you. Haha. .panas beb, besok gua terus daftar kat pejabat pos UTM. Ekhem. So yeah, thats about it. Takde yang menarik sangat. haih


Studying local.


It feels like i'm a step behind you know. Mesti semua orang yang belajar kat Malaysia pun rasa yang sama. Rasa macam, how am i gonna compete with these guys stduying in harvard, cambridge bla3. Their resume is gonna be ossem. And me? Feels so insignificant. But hey, cmon, rezeki masing-masing. Lagipun pros and cons, aci la. Local or overseas, semua ada kelebihan dan kebaikan masing-masing. Plus, its not about where we are, its about what we do right? So, it shouldnt really be a big deal. Infact, i'm having a blast here in UTM. :)

But the best thing about studying overseas is, you guys got to travel to a lot of places. Learn about new culture, and have stories to tell. Well, i mean, ada cerita yang lebih luas la skopnya. kan? That, is what i am so so so freakinly jealous about. I wanna go backpacking around europe with my friends too you know. I wanna greet stranger in different languages too. .But, hey hey, i know, there is still time for that. Is it? Hope so. Wanna join me later? Eceh :b

sari, ponteng kelas tapi belajar kat dorm. takpaham aku. .haha
eea, geng takot antu, geng lepak kat surau bila cuti sakit ekhem.
sab, hot stuff seseri weyh.haha
hidayah borhan! haha. .ingat lagi tak kelab kita? kahkah

Ok, tukar bahasa pulak. Ekhem. .Semalam, member aku bosan sangat agaknye, dah habis stalk member dia sendiri, dia stalk member aku lak. hahaha Jadah hape. Pastu ajak aku join sekali. Jadi kitorang pn berganding tenaga lah tengok photo album-photo album anda semua, tengok korang main salji, travel sana sini, backpacking dan sebagainye. Hmm pastu kitorang macam. . .eh ossem sungguh sahabat-sahabat apel ini. ehek ehek *bodek sebab curik gamba kat fb. sory bebeh, n tq in advance for the pics. hehe*


Lost contact. 


Masa kat asrama dulu, rasa macam kenal je semua orang. Mungkin tak rapat tapi kenal lah. .Boleh la nak buat gelak-gelak, geng la. Tapi bila dah habis belajar, semua dah drifting away. Ikut haluan masing-masing. Masa sekolah rapat, bila dah habis SPM chat pun jarang, sms pun kadang-kadang, jumpa lagi la. .macam gerhana. . .rarely happen but when it does, it creates special memories that last forever. But i want you guys to know that, no matter where you are, i never forget you guys. I remember all those stupid things that we did. Berlakon tak jadi, main basket kalah dan looser gila pulak tu, nak fly tak jadi. . .usha budak-budak ASIS (ok fine, tu aku je kot.mwahaha) Reminiscing about it all rekindles old sparks that.............bla3 hape benda tah aku nak cakap.hahaha

nothing is dull when ur around beb. miss you la weh. .

I know i'm not good with keeping in touch. Aku jarang kontek, tapi aku selalu stalk. hahahaha Tengok photo album and your activities, its like i'm there and i'm travelling the world with you. I miss you guys, tapi aku macam poyo-poyo sikit. Tak nak cakap terang-terang. :) Pemalu orangnye. Awww~ so cute apel ini. xoxo

So lepas ni, kalau korang pergi travel mana-mana jangan lupa amek gambar super duper banyak. Upload kat fb, pastu jangan private kat friends. Haha senang aku nak tau perkembangan korang. cececewahhh Sweet en? Ekhem. .biaselah~ *kenyit-kenyit mata* BTW, yang study local pun sama. You are not save. I'm stalking all of you. mwahahah! Cam apebende lak aku ni, cam psycho je..Tapi psycho yang comel en? en en? ehek ehek. . .I lap you bebehs!

 sawi, you read my blog i stole your pic n puttin my blog.hahahaha

I'm sure everyone is doing this, stalking friends on facebook cuz you wanna know whats happening with them, but you just dont know how to start a conversation. Cuz, yeah, its kinda awkward. Dah lama kontek, plus tak lah rapat mana dulu. .tiba-tiba nak ajak borak, segan jugak kan? Tapi, bagi aku, kawan tetap kawan. Rapat atau tak, akan ada keinginan untuk tahu khabar dan whats going on with you guys an all. Tambah-tambah sekolah perempuan, asrama penuh. Walaupun tak pernah borak pun, tapi bila dah lama tinggalkan sekolah, you gonna miss everyone. Its not bout who you are back then in school, its about us being there together. Its about us and all the memories, all the triumphs and all the hard work. . .its something that you cant explain by words, its a feeling you know. Its like an invisible bond, us.

*haha, dah macam syok sendiri pulak aku ni. Dem you hormones! i blame you! *malu malu* bye.

cerita berkaki

bebeling
♥assalamualaikum

Stories travel. Ada yang travel laju, ade yang slow. .ade yang terus sampai ke destinasi yang sepatutnya ade yang bersimpang siur. Ade yang sesama cerita asal ade yang bertambah berkurang. Itu realiti. realiti manusia yang suka bercerita sebab bercerita tu medium bersosial. Kalau takda modal nak bercerita, susah nak berkawan, is it? 

Cerita tentang diri sendiri.

Akan ada satu masa dimana, sedang kita berlepak-lepak-an dan bertidak berkesahan tentang suasana sekeliling, tiba-tiba terdengar cerita yang amatlah tak sedap pasal diri kita sendiri, tak pun keluarga, tak pun kawan rapat. What do you feel? How do you respond? Or have you already got into this kind of situation? Does your hands suddenly got so cold and your heart starts pounding hard and a rush of anger flows so rapidly to your body?

Truth and lies

Kebenaran dan penipuan dah jadi hampir-hampir tak sepenting siapa yang menyebarkan cerita tu. Perasaan nak mengkaji kebenaran desas desus dan nasab-nasabnya belum muncul dalam diri sikit pun. Yang ada cuma kemarahan yang membuak-membuak, sedih, malu, takut, risau. . .keliru. .Ape nak buat? Siapa yang buat cerita ni? Kenapa buat macam ni?

'gossip girl' merata-merata.

gohsip girl xoxo

 Girl code harus dikuatkuasakan


So you think only guys have bro code? Meh. .haha Girl code is simple you know. Kalau kita ada perasaan tak puas hati tentang sesuatu dan rasa nak meluahkan kemarahan, kesedihan, kekecewaan dan segala perasaan negative kepada seseorang, kita hendaklah berbuat demikian (berbebel dengan emosional) dekat kawan baik kita sahaje. See. .easy pizi. .

Sebab logiknye, ekhem. .kalau kawan baik ni, dia akan layan je apa kita cakap, tak kisah la betul ke tak dia akan menangkan kita. Tapi kawan baik biasanya mengamal amalan cover mengcover. Ape yang kita bebel, marah-marah maki ke dan sebagainya, akan stay antara kita dan dia je. Takde penambahan cerita. Kalau kawan biasa tu lain sikit, perasaan nak membekap membe tu kurang. So cerita tu jadi macam cerita hot la, jadi modal nak berborak ngan orang lain. So jadi ler gosip.

Yeke? Aku pun tak sure ape aku cakap ni betul ke tak. haha Tapi gitu lah kot. Bila kita tersalah cerita pasal sesuatu dengan emosionalnya kat orang yang salah, cerita tu akan tersebar dengan meluasnya, secara sengaja atau tak sengaja. 


Camnoh nak handle gosip?


Jangan gosip? Imposibru. Best kot bergosip. Haha Diam-diam ubi cemana pun, kalau ade orang kata "Weh, aku ade citer hot!" mesti tak tahan, rasa nak dengar je. huhu #pengalaman. I guess the best thing to do is, anggap gosip tu sebagai cerita rekaan semata-mata dan anggap gosip tu sebagai hiburan. Tak payah nak pecaya sangat la cerita buah mulut nih, tak payah nak cerita kat orang lain sangat la. Tumpang gelak kejap pastu buat dunnoe je. Ye ke idak? Ceh, cakap senang la. Dem

*kalau la tetiba satu hari nanti ade dengar cerita tak sedap pasal diri sendiri. .gelak pastu cakap padan muka kat diri sendiri jela. Haha Cam ko tak gohsip-gohsip aje der. Gelakkan aje ler. .takde ape ler. .

Oke dah.sekian sahaje bebelan saya untuk malam ini.