Monday, December 1, 2014



mendung hujan 
pergi dan tinggalkan redup siang 
yang melindungi aku
dari terik yang mengasari tubuhku
terebah sudah gusar kau tundukkan

gah ombak
menghakis desir pantai
taruh wajah seluruh senja
ikutkan naluri baik ku biar saja
terbalas sudah seru sujud malamku

Saturday, November 1, 2014

the friendship desperation

♥ assalamualaikum 

i love this 2 | via Tumblr

I should blame Naruto for this. Everything about him is a lie. Where on earth would you find a kind, loving, insanely positive, and purehearted guy like him? Orang macam ni wujud dalam komik sahaje rasanye. I think, what i envy the most about him is how much he values friendship. And i want his friends too. Sobsobb

Tau tak, belajar master ni lonely sangat. Maybe tak semua orang rasa macam ni. Tapi kalau nak compare dengan masa degree, you'll feel the difference. Semua benda buat sorang-sorang, agak sedih. Tapi cmon, kena strong! Independent! Ugh..its easier said than done. Lebih-lebih lagi masa tengah stress, lepas tu tak ada tempat nak release. Boleh jadi down kalau tak kuat semangat.

Desperate for attention

Ada masa-masa aku macam ni jugak. Bukan nak perhatian orang tersayang (you know what i mean) tapi nak perhatian keluarga, kawan-kawan. Kalau dengan keluarga mungkin lagi senang bila nak bandingkan dengan nak dapat perhatian kawan-kawan. Sebab kawan ni tak sama macam family. Family ni kalau marah, kalau tak suka apa dia buat pun, tak tahan lama. Nanti elok balik, sayang balik. Perasaan ambil berat sesama keluarga ni tak sama macam kawan-kawan. Kawan-kawan kita tak boleh mintak attention, tapi attention diberi oleh kawan-kawan yang betul-betul kisahkan kita, yang betul-betul sayangkan kita.

/spaceebound | via Tumblr

Aku bukannya jenis kawan yang contact hari-hari, yang cerita semua benda. Aku jenis yang 'when you need me, i'll be there no question asked.' And most of the time, aku value friendship lebih dari org lain value friendship tu. So its kinda hard. But i'm working on it. Aku rasa aku kena tone down perasaan caring ni, kena limitkan kot.  Supaya aku tak mudah rasa tersinggung. Senang sangat taching ni merimaskan kot. Aku sendiri pun rimas.

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

to touch a dog

♥ assalamualaikum 

Oh my..its amazing how an idea can lead to, well, this. All this hatred and argument without reasons, i hate it. But this is us. Not necessarily "us" us but us, community around the world. You get what i mean? Huhu..Some people might say things like, "orang melayu memang macam tu" "orang malaysia memang macam ni" but i think everyone around the world is "macam tu" and "macam ni". I guess its the nature of any society; to focus on small issues rather than the bigger picture. Because smaller issues are easier to understand, hence easier to have an opinion, hence easier to argue with people. Okay too much hence. But serious though, its always the little things that made us fight. 

I want to touch a dog

When i first knew about this event i was kinda shock. But after reading more i realized that there are few ustaz on ground to teach people and educate about how to sertu, samak and all, so i thought, well maybe its a good thing. But the next day, the next day was even more shocking. Reading the post and comments about the event is what broke my heart the most.

To make things clear, i am not 100% agree with what they did. I mean, c'mon, do you really have to hug and kiss them? Then posting the pictures on facebook, like you don't know how sensitive the issue is. Have some respect for people who have strong believes about this. Of course they'll feel like you're mocking at what they believed in. You would too.

I think the organizer had a good idea but they didn't execute it well enough. Things like this, its either you do it perfectly or not do it at all. Its that critical. 

"Mula-mula touch a dog lepas tu apa? Touch a pig pula?"

Now this, this is what i think is the most ridiculously unfair statement ever. Its like you want people to fight. Those people who organized the event are muslims too, they have feelings too. To assume their effort to spread awareness will lead to "Touch a pig event" is too much. Its hurtful, don't you realize it? If you're scared this might lead to event like "touch a pig" then take precautions. Make sure things like that wont happen, make rules or regulations. We can do that you know. Not judging people and accuse them of doing things that are not even happening yet.

I don't agree with all the hugs and kisses too but i don't hate them. I just think what they did exceeds our limitations as a muslim. I think these people don't know what the limit is because looking at pictures, most of them wears hijab and all. Theres even a few makcik wearing tudung labuh, i don't think they'll do it if they knew they can't. So enough with this hatred, forgive them already. 

Or maybe they have different sets of beliefs than us. We do have different mazhab and not everything is black and white, they are few grey areas. So instead of assuming they're stupid, how bout assuming they know more about the different opinions of different muslim scholars than you? See..its possible that you're wrong. So say nice things ok. 

So can muslim touch a dog?

There are lots of websites you can read. Don't read opinion, read blogs that have clear references that you can recheck. If easier, read fatwa from Jais or Jakim. But their statement are usually straight to the point. I mean the explanations are short and brief. I found these blogs here which i think is good.

Or you know, read from facebook page of ustaz and ulama. But but, remember that we don't follow what the ustaz or ulama says, we follow Al-Quran and Sunnah. They're just sharing their knowledge and they are not free from making mistakes. So read more than 1 ulama or ustaz ok. Read more and stay positive. Thats what mature people do. Ahah :)