I've been swallowing this feeling for quite a while. My car broke down. And because i drive an old BMW, the cost to repair...fuuhhh its too much to bear. Plus i'm not working, i'm a full time student. I don't have money. I do have some, thank god i applied for MARA loan, but its not enough. And now i don't have money to pay for the tuition fee. 

First time it broke was while i was out, I parked and waited for Wak inside the car and suddenly smokes came out from the hood and the car died. Can you imagine how i felt? Scary. But i'm glad it didn't happened while i'm driving. And thankfully i didn't happened while i was driving back to K.L. So it ok, i'm not emotional or stressed out, i'm just a bit shocked. It turns out the radiator leaked. Total repair cost, RM500.

Second time was while i was out grocery shopping. I was stopping at traffic light and suddenly the car just died. Making things worst, the traffic was a bit heavy that day. So other cars keep honking and my friend and i..we panicked. It was a horrible experience but we managed to laugh it off. 2 car stopped and help us get the car out of the way. I'm glad it happened while we're stopping at traffic light. At least the car behind us was slow and we didn't cause any accident. This time, the total cost was RM1500. But thats ok, i'm cool. Being positive as always. Then suddenly the radio can't work. Now i'm a bit frustrated. It was out from the workshop for just a few days and the radio can't work? A bit stressed out but still ok.


The third time happened while i was picking up Wak from his house, we're going to have dinner. I parked and waited outside the house then suddenly the car died. I try to relax and keep a positive mind. I'm ok but not so ok. You know..i'm tired and i don't have money. I don't want to ask money from my parents cause they've given me too much already. They paid for all the saman, and the roadtax..i don't have the heart to ask for more. But i have too. I cashed out some money from my account and i'm left with RM100. Thankfully my mom banked in some money into my account but i'm sad because if it wasn't because of my family, all i have left is RM100 to spend this month. *sigh*




I'm feeling down right now but i'll be fine. Thankfully i have good friendship here and i have a hero to save me, always. I don't know what i'll do without him. So the moral of the story: things can always be worse, you can't survive living by being alone, and don't spend too much time worrying, act.